Livang Land

28.04.2012 The feeling of keep busying with study stuff, struggle for paper and hardly spend my time with my love for the week and today gonna go for food trip outing with my boy:) I'm just so excited to meet him. Seriously. Sms everyday cant win the meet up tho. It's just as simple as, KFC, Avengers, Kenny Rogers, Starbucks, Big Apple, Chatime, Station1...we're having a lot of fun, just for the thing we craved HAHAH baby, let's grow fat together :p He planned for it and thank you for that. It seems that you're the one who plan as i can't make any hehe you won't mind de hor^^ And your accompany recently make me realize that i'm a blessed, lucky, blissful enough...and i'm satisfied with that. But whenever think about that you're going to graduate real soon, in a blink of eye probably *as time flies* and you're going to busy with your job(which i don't know how far it will be)..POKE "distance"..gah! I hope i can go through it. I...

guess nothing much happened besides spending my weekend with my headache:( not even touch any of my books, homeworks, assignments.. yesterday slept early but woke up by room mate just to get a knife cutter from me.. sudden wake up make my headache worst but even after that slept till morning doesn't help much.. trying to study but cant. hate you headache. you make me sick. i need my health back.

i dont know why, i just feel motivated,  all over again, after getting some probably seems to be destructive refreshment from mum, but it helps me to think in a way that give me some motivation, and after argue with him, it's just some kind of....gah... happiness that couldn't explain by words, or maybe i'm not good at express it into words, but what i know now is i'm feeling so excited, gorgeous, HAHAHA :D say together HAHAHA:D

曾经， 她们说善意的谎言是必要的。 我，无言。 善意谎言，你真的有效吗？ 说谎对我来说，可以是很难，也可以很容易。 那就要看对象是谁 可是就算说了那个谎，他们信了，我的心里还是如此难受。 最后我还是说了实话，心里舒服了却让他们生气了。 我，真的很没用。 口口声声说可以做的有多狠就多狠 但，我根本做不到。 说实在我也很讨厌别人对我说谎， 非常。 所以那所谓的善意谎言，我真的很难办到。 可是我还是说了。 I'm not born to write, to express word beautifully, I'm just doing some honest saying, with my own way, I'm just some kind of human being to mess around with you. ps: Am i okay?

又是很废的过了一天， 想要读书，却有太多烦人的东西在脑力飘啊飘， 别问， 因为我也不清楚。 原来， 我还真的想家了。 不应该这么早回来， 太多的不应该。 虽然今天看到，也和妈妈聊聊天， 但是还是不能忍，眼泪还是不听话。 今夜， 不知该怎么度过。 它又是如此的漫长。

why? why every time like this? why feeling so lost once again? FML

A decision meant to be made. I'd took a step which i though it will be the world end if i choose to take a step out from the little circle. Probably for now i do not feel anything but how about when i get back there? I don't dare to even think about it. Like what all those people that advise me, i should really put a lot more effort in my studies for this semester and do score else i am the one to be blame, seriously. #to get such reply somehow was so destructive but may God bless the team and wish them all the very best, hope they strike for the champion:)