Livang Land

Mentality. How life has changed? How mindset has grown? It took some time, it ticked but not clicked. Once it clicked, just go for it. Soon you will found out, too much of thoughts, delays the progress, you get tired of too much consideration in the end, you choose to let go. You are still young, run wild to the Mongolian field. As if there is no ending. Even if you stumbled, you will get up becoming stronger than before. The antibody is there. Unbeatable. #stacylivangwrote #currentstateofmind

Wassup guys. It's almost midnight. Before i get myself into dreamland, might as well i write about another dream that run wild in my head last few days. This make my dream for now is two, after the last few post whereby my dream is to initiate a reading station.  Here is the post. All the thought are still vague and have yet to be put into a much proper or organise. So, let start! As nowadays, many young people had change the trend where they has change direction towards making videos in youtube and literally earning money.  Since, I am good at narrate why not i do narrate! Previously, back during my undergraduates life, i did this too! I narrate for my group and i got a positive feedback from the lecturer. I like that kind of feel. Honestly. However, I have no idea how should i present the whole thing, as in how the video should go. Haha. Super rough concept.  It makes me realise, all this while i had been living, unknown of what makes me happy, where is m...

 Morning, it was suppose to be a beautiful day because tomorrow is weekend.  However, my day started with sucks. Me and bf had planned to be early bird so that we could off for breakfast (night before). So, i woke up 15 mins earlier than the other 4 days. End up the rain decided to fall slowly and become bigger. hurm. I have a bad feeling. I want to go for breakfast. But bf said it would be troublesome for having go through the rain (in and out the car) just for breakfast.  That is when i start to feel irritated. I do not know how to handle my own anger. I am mad. I choose to not question or asking more because i was scared i would get the answer that would even hurt me more (although i am very much hurt right now for the fact of cannot go out for breakfast). So,  I cook myself instant noodles and make myself a cup of hot milo.  Still, i could not calm myself down even though i was pampered by food. The way i express my anger/madness this time...

  Hi all who happened to stumble upon my blog. Haha. I'm here to update about my birthday! My birthday is on the 8th! However Im already celebrating it since early april myself haha. Sorry, just preparing the mood. :)   However, one thing i need to mention is as age goes older, i slowly found that birthday celebration don't have to be a big party flooded with friends or bunch of facebook "friends" sending wishes. I realise, if they really care, they would remember and it just gives a different feeling. Feeling loved. Feeling, i am not alone all this while. There are people who actually care. It just feel warm. Quality doesn't give you any happiness. Thank you so much for those who care for me. So, my pre-birthday activity goes with....*drumroll* Tuesday- My colleagues asked me out for karaoke session right after work! The amazing part was my bf who refused to join at the first place changed his mind and made it to the occasion. Thank you my love. This is th...

Good morning!  Yesterday was a history, today is a mystery. Yo mate, it's the first of April- April Fool. I hope I would not get any fool from my friend. While for those who want to do prank, you might want to consider to not go over the border and we will have a happy day today.  My birthday is coming soon. It means I am getting one year older soon too. I am exciting with the date but not with the number of the age. I am going to get older and should live even wiser right? Well, I feel that already. Even before the day. I feel the syndrome of getting old. I feel tired so easily. I started to loan from bank right after one months working (owned a baby- car). I am now viewing through the pricing of house. I felt my salary is not enough for me to spend. I always remind myself to do saving for future. I cannot act childishly towards any issues. It does not have to be a lot, but the above can sum up. How much life has changed?  However, despite of all ...

     It had been 4 months working in big city whereby I could never missed to caught in a mild jam during weekdays except Friday or when no severe accident happen (t&c apply). This is a routine and I'm getting myself used to it. Anyhow, I had encountered the limit in the body and mind. I certainly could not accept those drivers who cut the queue during jam. The blood will run through my nerve to prepare the foot on either accelerate/brake pedal and energise into eagle eyes where estimation distance between the front car is almost, zero. Through this session, no mistakes is allowed.      Okay, what i want to focus on is, some Malaysian drivers did not have mercy and patience during jam. They will take whatever it takes to cut queue, for example, when the road is narrowed into one, if the road is wide enough, they would not allow any space is wasted. "I fit perfectly there." This happen every time when im back from work. The longest jam occurred right...

Morning, Monday. Morning, guys. The five weeks of Lent were wrapped. I am not sure how well I do for the past five weeks but I am pretty sure I did not do that well. Talking about fasting, praying, reading scriptures during these crucial five weeks for a Catholics, I have a milestones to go. Catholics, I declared myself as a Catholics but I have yet complete any of my "academic" with God. I just being told by my mother that i had already baptized when i was young, which could not stand strong on this days because what they want is a proof, the certificate. My certificate is i was baptized by Father Jacob back in my mother's village Long San on the 'pusau' celebration by the Kenyah's. Anyhow, i had decided to take that step (which need so much bravery. Just being me.) to approach someone who is in charged with it. Then, last two days, i received a hello from this girl through facebook messenger, and thank God because at least she did not totally forget about ...