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Totally not in the mood and it just so sudden that i cant control:( end up thrown out real bad attitude to others. I know i shouldn't but sometimes when words already come out without process through the brain, basically it's a "sorry no cure" *labelled as **** HATE IT so much:/ don't feel good again. no mood to eat.

It's been a very tough day with all my time spent on dealing with the robots and stuck in lab for nearly whole day while final is coming so soon that i havent study yet(how the hell am i going to sit for it!). Got few task to accomplish and i was so confuse to start from where:( #guess all my post emo with all saddy face. i want to say christmas was nothing at all to me this year. Not celebrating with family nor relatives and friends but LAB wth.D: I don't feel good with it. Anyway now waiting for the new year. Welcome it in a waY??? not sure how will it goes pffftt. plan to sleep early tonight and awesomely my electronic task not yet done! beware stacy.@.@ argghh i wish to not remember all the shitty thing. please get away from my head. Having too much thought this few days and it was such a distraction. I need to focus, concentrate....everyday laugh till so high, talk till so loud, having fun...here come the question, am i really happy?! #ignoreignoreignore since limit ...

It would be the second time to miss celebrating christmas eve with family but this time the feeling was awfulll compared to last year:(( feel so leftout from them..aihh...IMISSMYFAMILYIMISSHOMEMISSMIRI..i just want to beb back home..Depressed with all the things surround me and to those who not kept their promise. sad case. sorry no cure kbai. here's a touching video to shoo the sadness away. ignoremyrandomness. thankyou.

everybody preparing for tomorrow. circuit theory test 2. seems like deathnote to me. so i need to get ready with my grave huh?! holysheatt. i don't want to. God u know how hard i've been trying to catch up for everything but how come i lost the whole way down to the road you showed me. Stacy, where's your faith? i hope the paper be kind to me tomorrow. i need to do well for this paper else imma be deadmeat. i cant fit in any notes that i studied! help me please, i beg. D: countdown 7hours left to study. what a short night and gonna be sleepless. Stacy, you can do it!*shout out loud deep in my heart* go go go go~ wish the best luck la! +ve source +ve source

It's not my luck again for this time. I just feel bad and so sorry to my mum the most. I've been tried hard to make myself seeing things in the positive perspective, but now I'm not sure whether i can continue with it or not. Or i should say i need to force myself ! I lost myself. somewhere..fml..

yea this week things keep on going on and on. loving in this week as i can finally outing. but tonight cant really finish the stuff in time and how on earth am i suppose to explain. arrrhhh:( dislike. i'm not hardworking enough i guess~ i shouldn't be like that. but if everything go smoothly then life's dull what! so finger crossed! XX

feels awkward. why? cse you're weird. wayy weirdyy than expected. deactivate mode on. fine bye.

I felt the most downhill of my life in Uni at the very end of November where you fell off from the mountain, stumble down by the stone that you accidently step on it and just struggling with the wound..feeling so helpless. You can't find someone that can spend a little time to talk with, share out everything and will willing to motivate or just lecture you. The more you keep in your heart, you will get mad of it. You will feel that the tears are rolling at the corner of your eyes and it will suddenly fall down although you have try hard to go against the gravity. Like what people always say no one is an island, i found out family would be the best one to talk with. My supersister the best companion and help me a lot going through the harsh night. It was really tough. I wasn't strong enough as what you see me. Mentally destructive. I cant help but to just cried. Express all out in one go. At least i feel better after talk to her. It helps. I f...