A little thing before final.

Yesterday went for 5 ETP meeting. At first it was pretty comfortable and relaxing but along the whole meeting i felt like so awkward, so embarrassed with myself. They mentioned about the result really destructed my self esteem. All of them scored like, i guess average is dean list. The moderator said how important is our result and it was like if we can't achieved minimum above 3.0 then will drop us from this programme. Then here comes all the regret for scoring too low last semester, all of sudden the burden was  extremely heavy! Worried, since the final arriving so soon that i scared i wasn't prepared to the fullest. Although this semester I'm on the way of getting with the flow, to score for what i targeting, i'm still in the midst, not sure whether I can do it or not. I know i shouldn't compared my result with others result but that's not a piece of cake. Seeing others getting rather high even though they are busy with other thing was somehow irritating, to be honest. So, I keep telling myself that do not compete with others but with myself. 

No matter how, I will must do my very best for this semester to make sure result will not a problem for next semester again. So, stacy do well ya! Study hard and pray harder. :3 can't wait for the holidays. must rest well because next semester gonna be the toughest half year ever. May god bless<3