Last night really have a bad dream!!! i cant sleep after that dream...i scare it will become the truth or maybe worst than the dream.....it was about the SPM result....still got few months before i sit for it but now i already feel scare to take that exam....i dont think too much about SPM (tis is the truth)....i jz worry about my homework...attitude...that change a lot since form 3~ i never work hard in that after form 3!!! i loves hanging on internet for the whole day...or anytime when i'm free...N i willing to watch tv rather than finish my homework first....i cant miss...if i miss that show or drama then i wont have the mood to touch my book....see it already feel sick then just go on bed n sleep again~ damn....i dun like tis kind of me...myself...can i find out how am i when i was form 3...homeworks pass on time...studies...not like now! SEE now i can still update my blog on time~owh....NO.... :( :( :(
Anger Management
Morning, it was suppose to be a beautiful day because tomorrow is weekend. However, my day started with sucks. Me and bf had planned to be early bird so that we could off for breakfast (night before). So, i woke up 15 mins earlier than the other 4 days. End up the rain decided to fall slowly and become bigger. hurm. I have a bad feeling. I want to go for breakfast. But bf said it would be troublesome for having go through the rain (in and out the car) just for breakfast. That is when i start to feel irritated. I do not know how to handle my own anger. I am mad. I choose to not question or asking more because i was scared i would get the answer that would even hurt me more (although i am very much hurt right now for the fact of cannot go out for breakfast). So, I cook myself instant noodles and make myself a cup of hot milo. Still, i could not calm myself down even though i was pampered by food. The way i express my anger/madness this time...
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